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Events: Brimfield Antique Fair

Today, I visited the Brimfield Antique fair's last event for 2010. The fair takes place in Brimfield, (where else?) Massachusetts, the second weekends of May, July, and September. I go every single event to buy teacups from the same vendor every time. I also buy other things, sometimes, but we mostly go to get teacups and wander around.

One of the many reasons I like going to the fair is that, seeing all the pretty furniture and decorations, I can think about my future with my prince. ♥  I often joke to the King and Queen, with, "This is what my house will be filled with when I 'grow up'..." teehee. ♥ Really though, I always find beautiful things at such amazing prices here! For instance, we found working stone fountains, some with lions and the like, or some with globes or fish, for only $95 USD each!! That's so inexpensive, for something so beautiful and tranquil....!

Yes, I'm just about lame enough to take a picture of myself in a mirror...

(Pardon my face, I was laughing at my father laughing at me for doing this. ha! also my face looks a bit chubby here.   owo   probably because I was looking down, at my phone screen. haha!)

This is what I wore today! I dressed for winter because my mother told me it was going to be cold and we were spending all day outside. >< First to a birthday party in a park, and then to the fair, so I dressed warmly.... at least I was comfortable, even though it wasn't cold at all. *laughs*

I wore a crimson dress, two pairs of black tights, black boots, a white coat, and a black headband.

I'll post more soon, probably tomorrow- I have a speech to write, a shower to take, and some serious sleep is needed to make it through tomorrow! Oh how I hate Mondays *laughs*

Daily Blog- August 16, 2010

So, today, I planned on having an informational post, but some circumstances, (mainly some haters and a comment on my last post, for those restlessly curious,) put me in a very bad mood. Plus the fact that it's two in the morning.

Basically I didn't do anything productive, today- my day was a mixture of crying and screaming along to music, avoiding my mother, and sleeping. ><  I don't really have much of a good excuse for this, I do have a story, but I'd rather not get into it as I can only tell you my side of the story, and my side of the story would make my mother seem like a terrible person, which is far from the truth.

So this is just what I threw on after my shower... you can tell I'm sick, still. ><  I generally wear prettier and more detailed nightgowns, a lot of which are antique or vintage, but I just was not in the mood today. So instead I threw on some freshly-washed bloomers and my beloved Ray William Johnson shirt.  My hair is up right now because I'm doing one of my favorite hairstyles, this one, from Bubz Beauty-







I know that it's a summer hairstyle and that summer is almost over, (already!?) but I think this is a cute and casual look for anytime!!

Tomorrow, I will try very hard to be more productive, I promise. ><

With Love,

Daily Blog- August 15, 2010

So, although I generally try to keep my personal life from this blog, that forces me to not post very often at all. I'm going to try to write a post every day, (keyword: "try"), whether informational or personal. Today, it's a personal post.

Yesterday I came down with a fever, and it didn't lighten at all today, so I was forced to miss a bridal shower that all the other ladies in my household attended. Since I could not attend, my dear grandmother gave me the "prize" she had one, that white teapot filled with flowers!! It was a wonderful surprise, and it looks just perfect on my teatable! ((Please pardon the mess on the couch behind the table- I need to clean tomorrow, as you can tell. ^^;;;)) My mother and grandmother were at the shower with my Aunt, my uncle took our "guest", Steven, on a bike ride, and my grandfather was golfing this morning, so when I awoke, it was just me and my father in the house. I was feeling very sick, so I mainly just lazed around in the morning, ahaha. I stayed in bed, reading blogs and stories on my PSP, and text-messaging my prince and his friend (my ex-boyfriend), Adam.

Last night, my prince, Randy, was staying the night at Adam's house and they decided to "prank call" me. At first I knew it was them, so I wasn't frightened at all, I just laughed it off. However I was curious as to who's phone they were using, since I have Adam's home phone number programed into my phone, and Randy's cell phone programmed as well. However, when Randy called me on his cellphone and I asked about it, they said "you're getting phone calls?" and things like "it isn't us," and "who's phone would we be using?" From there on out I started to be frightened. This person sending me text and picture messages seemed to be "an admirer". I recognized the first three digits of their phone number, so I knew which town they were from. They were saying things that scared me a little bit. For instance, when I asked "Who are you?", the reply that came was "Someone who wants you badly."

I continued messaging this person for hours. The pranks started around eleven o' clock pm and continued on until about two am. This person was telling me things like "You're pretty, smart, and kind and Randy doesn't deserve you. He's so rude to you all the time." ((To which I replied "So what? He loves me.")), telling me they loved me, thought I was hot, and that I had pretty eyes and such. I don't receive these types of compliments often, so I was slightly tied between absolute terror and flattery. Randy texted me asking things like "Any news on the creep?", and told me "Do anything to find out who it is."

After a while, this person, who had been labeled simply as "Creep." in my phone's contact list, stopped messaging me, so I asked "Are you awake?" and he said "No...", to which I replied "Well then you're pretty damn good at texting in your sleep.", to which I received "Hahaha, that's another reason I love you, you're so funny."  For some reason this comment set me off. It annoyed me. I didn't want to be loved by someone I wasn't even sure if I knew. I put it off and continued talking, trying to figure out who it was. They asked for a picture. I sent one, keeping in mind Randy's comment to "do anything"....

A while later, after more talking, I recieved a message saying "ADDIE, you passed with a B+" my reply was ".....???" "You were just tested to see if you would cheat on ME." "Wait, cheat on you...?" "This is Randy."  To be honest, I became a complete child, then, swearing and all. It was extremely immature of me, and of coarse I regret it. "I. F****ING. HATE YOU." "Why? I was just testing you." "You promised me it wasn't you!!!"  "I understand, but it's tough love, babycakes. I just needed to know."  Him calling me "babycakes", a rarely-used petname, tells me even he knew he messed up. It didn't make it any better, though. The rest of the conversation was mostly repeats of that, up until "...I'm mostly upset because, everything you said... it was all fake..." ((This next one is copied word for word, since I saved it to my phone, ahaha)) "Like your eyes being gorgeous? I love your eyes and you are my precious."

To be honest, my heart melted right then. ♥  It's always been something of a romantic fantasy of mine to be told that I'm precious to someone. In my mind, that's the ultimate compliment.

However, they were still very cruel to me. ><   ahaha, It's laughable now, but I was very hurt at the time!!

It's getting late now, so I must take my leave, but I'll try to write a more productive post tomorrow morning!!


With Love,